Why I'm leaving

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   Hello.
I grew up on this game. My childhood was average, but in high school I ended up being expelled from a private catholic school and spent the remainder of Sophomore year in early online schooling. That time for me was very hard and I didn't really have an outward support network to turn to, until I found this game.  I fell in love immediately. 

Over the years I would grow tired of different personas and make new ones off new accounts ( so I would have to suspend the older ones). I know a lot of people take pride in their multi year long accounts but I greatly enjoyed the process of making a new account and adapting it with the new philosophy of my character. 

Unfortunately, I have struggled with mental health issues and substance abuse issues (alcohol). I'm not really the person I was before and to be honest in the last year or so of playing I was more likely than not drunk. As an alcoholic you don't really see a difference but when you look back sober for a brief 6 hours or so after work you're like "wow, I can't believe I did that".  It really is a sobering moment when you can look back and then get ready in the next ten minutes to drink. 

I love this community with all my heart and soul. I think about it all the time. It's been 12 years or so and I look upon it and the community with the same wonder I felt oh so long ago. The game and politics has changed a lot, and at times I wish for the simpler days when I could blame crowfed for everything ( even though one of my accounts was in crowfed for quite a while). 

To the follow: LadyLuvs, Kumo, HonoredMule, Bonfyr Verbo, Iofilip, Myr, Stormcrow, and to me the most important Jejune. There are eighty other players I could name and think so fondly of, but you strike out to me as being influential in the game or helping a troubled youth. You really don't or will not ever know but in these first few years of playing it meant the world to me. 

I love you all and if this game is up when I both get clean and deal with my issues I'll see you again,
love
the Con Orc

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ES2 Members Profile Send Private Message Find Members Posts Add to Buddy List Postmaster Joined: 25 Sep 2012 Status: Offline Points: 577	Post Options Post Reply Quote ES2 Report Post Thanks(1) Quote Reply Topic: Why I'm leaving Posted: 01 Apr 2022 at 02:22
	Hello. I grew up on this game. My childhood was average, but in high school I ended up being expelled from a private catholic school and spent the remainder of Sophomore year in early online schooling. That time for me was very hard and I didn't really have an outward support network to turn to, until I found this game. I fell in love immediately. Over the years I would grow tired of different personas and make new ones off new accounts ( so I would have to suspend the older ones). I know a lot of people take pride in their multi year long accounts but I greatly enjoyed the process of making a new account and adapting it with the new philosophy of my character. Unfortunately, I have struggled with mental health issues and substance abuse issues (alcohol). I'm not really the person I was before and to be honest in the last year or so of playing I was more likely than not drunk. As an alcoholic you don't really see a difference but when you look back sober for a brief 6 hours or so after work you're like "wow, I can't believe I did that". It really is a sobering moment when you can look back and then get ready in the next ten minutes to drink. I love this community with all my heart and soul. I think about it all the time. It's been 12 years or so and I look upon it and the community with the same wonder I felt oh so long ago. The game and politics has changed a lot, and at times I wish for the simpler days when I could blame crowfed for everything ( even though one of my accounts was in crowfed for quite a while). To the follow: LadyLuvs, Kumo, HonoredMule, Bonfyr Verbo, Iofilip, Myr, Stormcrow, and to me the most important Jejune. There are eighty other players I could name and think so fondly of, but you strike out to me as being influential in the game or helping a troubled youth. You really don't or will not ever know but in these first few years of playing it meant the world to me. I love you all and if this game is up when I both get clean and deal with my issues I'll see you again, love the Con Orc
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Tensmoor Members Profile Send Private Message Find Members Posts Add to Buddy List Postmaster General Joined: 07 Apr 2015 Location: Scotland Status: Offline Points: 1830	Post Options Post Reply Quote Tensmoor Report Post Thanks(1) Quote Reply Posted: 01 Apr 2022 at 09:11
	I really wholeheartedly wish you the very best in dealing with your issues and hope that you are able to return at some point. Tens

Rill Members Profile Send Private Message Find Members Posts Add to Buddy List Postmaster General Player Council - Geographer Joined: 17 Jun 2011 Location: California Status: Offline Points: 7078	Post Options Post Reply Quote Rill Report Post Thanks(1) Quote Reply Posted: 02 Apr 2022 at 01:22
	I've watched you grow up and struggle and fight through, and my hope is that you will use your fighting spirit to continue to overcome this challenge.

DeliciousJosh Members Profile Send Private Message Find Members Posts Add to Buddy List Forum Warrior Joined: 14 Jun 2012 Location: Denmark Status: Offline Points: 464	Post Options Post Reply Quote DeliciousJosh Report Post Thanks(1) Quote Reply Posted: 02 Apr 2022 at 10:37
	Hello EF/Suba, It has been a pleasure getting to know you through playing Illyriad. The first alliance that I joined was yours. We were small, based in Ursor and despite being a small account you inspired me to tag along for a little while. Again and again we stumbled across each other in the game, with every time being just as great. Thanks for being a good friend at times! I hope you can overcome the challenges of life. You are bright, intelligent and funny which is a good cocktail :) Get busy living <3
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demdigs Members Profile Send Private Message Find Members Posts Add to Buddy List Postmaster Joined: 12 Aug 2011 Status: Offline Points: 660	Post Options Post Reply Quote demdigs Report Post Thanks(1) Quote Reply Posted: 03 Apr 2022 at 03:13
	EF, I hope all works out for you, good luck, and God bless

Wild Members Profile Send Private Message Find Members Posts Add to Buddy List New Poster Joined: 16 Jul 2015 Location: UK Status: Offline Points: 25	Post Options Post Reply Quote Wild Report Post Thanks(1) Quote Reply Posted: 04 Apr 2022 at 08:31
	*Thoughts with you bud, we have faith in your achievements :))* *...Until we meet again, which we surely will!!*

DeliciousJosh Members Profile Send Private Message Find Members Posts Add to Buddy List Forum Warrior Joined: 14 Jun 2012 Location: Denmark Status: Offline Points: 464	Post Options Post Reply Quote DeliciousJosh Report Post Thanks(0) Quote Reply Posted: 24 Oct 2022 at 23:57
	I realize now, that he posted this on April 1st.
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